I love writing. But more than that, I love planning. I love making outlines and diagrams and deciding what goes where. I love writing character profiles and making Venn diagrams and deciding on word counts per chapter/section.
And I love doing all that by hand. I have notebooks full of notes and ideas which I have yet to incorporate because if i don’t have the words all figured out first I can’t bring myself to start typing.
I don’t like to type anything before I know exactly where the story is going first. If I just start typing, i feel like a fraud. Like I’m just pretendy writing. I hate feeling like I’m just making things up as I go along, which is ridiculous because that is what fiction writing is, verbatim.